Friday, April 21, 2006

The alien within

I'm trying to solve which are worse and which are better: to feel like an alien, to be considered an alien by others, to erroneously be paranoid about being considered an alien, to be paranoid about feeling like an alien. I'm sure it all has to do with egocentricity.

Nothing a lengthy jog or a workout in the gym can't fix.

The ability for verbal communication is a miraculous advantage. Even a small child can convey the most complex of thoughts with the deepest philosophical content to anyone who speaks the language. Not to forget the important things, such as explicitly (and if necessary, loudly) expressing personal likes and dislikes.


At 22 April, 2006 00:42, Anonymous Kevin said...

Hei, seems a theme is circulating around your tumble dryer brain :)

What about to feel a normal and healthy human being but as soon as you open your mouth the reaction from surrounding people indicates you are a stranger, or they are not as normal and healthy as assumed?

At 22 April, 2006 00:58, Blogger queerrel said...

Hei back! Yup, that was the one I didn't bother to write down: to erroneously be considered an alien. Might be due to a lack of a common symbolism/language - or just because of insuperable differencies in perceiving and sensing life.

At 22 April, 2006 11:36, Blogger Palin Zon said...

The worst of all is to feel an alien and at the same time to be treated as an alien by others. It tears you apart. Sooner or later.

At 22 April, 2006 14:09, Blogger queerrel said...

The solution is this beforementioned goal of 100 years in hunger dizzied by red wine - some alienation here and there should go unnoticed while busy blurring the senses. And how about a 24 h isolation tank with all the comfort facilities - whoa! :-D

At 22 April, 2006 15:08, Anonymous Kevin said...

"differencies in perceiving and sensing life" sums it all up. Ta bud

At 22 April, 2006 19:51, Blogger hyperboreanmountain said...

(1) feel like an alien. We can't ultimately know what it feels like to be another person, alien or not. So, maybe we feel like an alien, or then again maybe not. We are the only true yardstick.

(2) to be considered an alien by others. depends on what kind of alien. sometimes very advantageous, sometimes not. Can be changed by showing to others what we are really like, or by faking some role as most humans tend to do.

(3) to erroneously be paranoid about being considered an alien. in your own head, not very useful most of the time. so what if others think you are an alien, they are pretty strange -- OR TOO DAMNED "NORMAL" -- themselves.

(4) to be paranoid about feeling like an alien. the same as number (1), except now one doesn't trust one's own judgement.

I think the best is to consider one is a rare breed of one's own, a creature that is seldom seen in this world. It is possible to find others alike, but it is unlikely all the time. It is cooler, I think, to be a rare breed. There are things ONLY you can do out of a hundred people around you. You just need to take the responsibility to yourself and use what you've got. Many people around you do not have such an opportunity at all...

What advantage would there be in everyone being the average joe? No one would be an alien, but how interesting would life be?

I am an alien and proud of it. I fake normal any time of day and even like it. Nothing wrong with that context for me, it is just accepting the status quo of what is expected in order to get the generic things most people need and want. The rest is my own territory, a ground not many tread, but so what? ;)

I know a few other changelings and that is enough to comfort me of my "sanity" and worth, heh. :)

At 24 April, 2006 09:51, Anonymous Korpinsilmä said...

I think I'll just settle with being an alien and eating people regardless of what they think of me.

At 25 April, 2006 22:08, Blogger queerrel said...

(1) Damn right.
(2) And neither is effortless. I can't decide which requires more: striving towards genuiness and sharing yourself as you are (or feel you are) or faking roles. The latter would probably be something one is used to and is thus easier, unless you consciously adopt new roles you're not familiar with. In the long-term the former should get easier.
(3) I was referring to the situation, when you think others think you're an alien - when in fact they don't. I'd say that has to do with insecurity and giving too little credit for those others' intellectual capacities.
(4) My motto is: trust your own judgement even if you haven't a clue.

Due to especially your nr (1), I've rethought this whole alien business. My thanks.

I'll now be joining Korpinsilmä for a feast.

At 27 April, 2006 20:04, Blogger Ansku said...

Moi! I've finally got myself a blogger profile and a proto-blog (hell knows what will come up from it, if anything).
I feel myself like an alien so often I don't think of it too much. Everything about me has always been strange, from strange tastes, strange likes and dislikes, strange way of thinking and feeling, and I even dare to go as far as not watching TV and hating reality-shows, so I don't even have what to talk about with the "normal" people.

At 29 April, 2006 14:34, Blogger queerrel said...

Moi moi moi! Fortunately there seems to be plenty of aliens running loose on the planet. I jump for joy whenever I get a chance to interact with another recognizable alien! You're all bizarre entities to me anyway. I've yet to meet a person that had nothing strange in them whatsoever - of course it's all in the perspective. Hurray to strange likes and dislikes (and dykes)!

At 30 April, 2006 12:44, Blogger Ansku said...

Thank you. I'm bizarre and proud of it. :-)


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